I moved my blog... I wanted it on a site where people outside of blogspot could comment, and where I could have pretty background...


come see me, and bookmark it, 'cause this ones going bye-bye...


http://valiantpeebody.wordpress.com/

the opposite problem, tort.

My heart hurts tonight... a family I love who is dear to me is going through something that makes me want to scream. Why does this happen? UGHHH... people around me are hurting, and it makes me wanna break. I think so much about the affects of this pain, because I know for me, I feel I will forever be broken. I don't wish the constant pain on anyone... WHY DOES THIS HAPPEN? Don't feed me some line about being a fallen world, my heart is heavy. Innocent people... innocent children... broken by things they IN NO WAY deserved. THIS IS REALLY MESSED UP. As often as I intend to wallow in the pain of my current situations, I can't. It's hard for me to cry for anything significant in my world. I can rarely cry for my family, or my brother... but I cry for you. I cry for the pain that other are going through, because I just want SO BADLY for people in my world to be protected from the raw reality of this life. If I could, I would honestly take those burdens and carry them... PLEASE...PLEASE!!! I cannot shake these harsh realities from other peoples world, but aside from insincere words and meaningless offers to "talk, if you need to" I WANT TO TAKE THE PAIN AWAY FROM YOU! You don't deserve this. All I can do is be there, is comfort you in the only way I know how...

bliss...

Steam rose from out lips as we stood outside.
Our faces to Heaven, we looked at the stars,
I thought of all I'd been given in this man.

I felt his arm around my waist, and leaned toward him.
So safe, next to you.


Until you, I didn't believe in unconditional love.
I lived in a world where the more hoops I jumped through,
the more people would love me.
I never even accepted Gods love, because like so many other,
It had to be based on ME... and I am a failure.

Then there was you.
Every day I know you, I am better.
Every word I hear from you, I am stronger.
You offer me more strength with one touch then I've ever found anywhere.

You make me want to improve to be the woman you see me as.
I will never understand.
The love you show me is like nothing I've seen...
it's perfect.
I can only praise God for the gift of you,
He's the reason for the love we found.

In words, I will never express the things you mean to me.
My best friend, my love,
My Justin.


Those of you who have met Justin can tell immediately that he is smitten with me. I don't know why, or how I am so lucky, but I thank God not nearly enough for him. As Justin stepped into my life, I was really in no place to give love. I had just lost the closest person to me, and was still reeling in disbelief and pain. From the first day I met him, his true colors showed. Justin gave me hope, as sacrilegious as that sounds. He has such a patient and tender love for me, that it gives me something to aspire to. I want to love him like he loves me.

Justin is not like most people. When times of sorrow and pain sweep over me (as they often do) he doesn't try to paint my emotion with flowery words about bravery and strength... he hugs me. The most amazing man in the ENTIRE world, will see me crying my brain out about something ridiculous (like being late to Omnimax and not being able to see the movie) and he just holds me. When most people would awkwardly hand me a Kleenex and look away, he comes to me and, knowing he can't take the pain away, rides through the storm with me.

I love you so much, Justin... you're more than anything I could even hope for, pray for or dream. My world... I could write a million songs about the way you say my name, and I could live a lifetime with you, and then do it all again.